Entries from October 2006

Monday, October 23, 2006

sweet skin

Before he left for work, my husband roused me gently from sleep and kissed me goodbye..before he shut the door I had already found a comfortable position and went right back to sleep.
And then they decided to have me for breakfast. (Well, more like my skin..) And I was bitten in three places at the [...]

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Of Ex’s and Dust

I was sifting through my old stuff earlier and eventually found myself reading letters I’ve kept, one after the other. I remembered things that I was not sure I wanted to remember just yet.
I remember how I loved this boy once. I also remembered how afraid he was when he realized how much he wanted [...]

Thursday, October 12, 2006

not myself today

so we’ve got most of the cleaning done, curtains are up again. just two more boxes of junk in the living room and the horror of facing the laundry room junk. I haven’t been feeling so good since yesterday. just really sore pretty much everywhere. must be from all that scrubbing. i still can’t believe [...]

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

as if cleaning fixes things

I have been cleaning to death. I imagine that I am getting rid of my sorrows that way. But it’s not working. For all the cleaning and organizing I have done in the past week, all I got were painful stitches. Crap. And all those websites said that I should be okay to move in [...]

Friday, October 6, 2006

Rerun

After weeks of being busy dealing with everything that came my way I ended up alone tonight with nothing to do.
Nothing to do but think.
I’ve been bawling like a baby in the last hour, crying over the baby I lost months and months ago. I cannot stop.
Last night we went to see a friend’s mum [...]

Friday, October 6, 2006

Walter finally let me take his picture. :)

this is walter.

Thursday, October 5, 2006

Love Me, Feed Me, Set Me Free

I am not a parent just yet, but I have been a daughter all my life. I am twenty five. And all this time, there were so many things that my parents did differently. I think I turned out okay though, I have never really been the center of a neighborhood disaster. Which is good [...]