too late

I saw photos today. Full color photos of what is now a sea of muck. Did you know it was blue? I was two decades too late. In the 1960′s the Manila Bay was blue. Blue. Blue like the sparkling sapphire. Blue like the San Francisco sky. Blue. Real blue. I cannot say enough of [...]

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Like Senator Palpatine

I think my greatest fear would be to wake up one day and realize that I am my mother. I think I was conditioned to care for her because she bore me and raised me. But I have always wanted to be someone not like her at all. I think it is creeping up into [...]

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laundry days

Laundry days are exhausting. Load laundry, wait for it to be cleaned, unload, put on hangers and hang on the pole to dry. (I don’t have a dryer and I don’t want one.) When the clothes are dry, you take them, fold them and tuck them neatly into the closet. Some clothes require ironing, and [...]

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a staggering reflection of me

We have a poodle. And lately he has become aggressive when we try to take socks, or other stuff he’s not supposed to chew or eat, from him. The harder the husband scolds him, the worse the fang-baring and insane growling gets. I think he is channeling my rage. Last night we had another incident [...]

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strangers

I don’t understand how it happened. But today I realized, I have no idea who my husband is. I was trying to remember the guy I married. In the car today, I was supposed to be in pilates class but the husband was yelling at me so much, I couldn’t stop crying. He said it [...]

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